What Does ‘Fine’ Actually Feel Like?

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“How are you?”

“Fine.”

It has to be one of the most automatic conversations humans have. Most of the time, the person asking isn’t requesting a detailed assessment of your inner world, and you probably don’t fancy giving them one while standing in the supermarket queue anyway. Fine does the job. It keeps things moving, right?

But what happens when “fine” becomes the answer you give yourself too. Because there’s a difference between telling the person at the checkout you’re fine and genuinely having no idea how you feel. And I think a lot of us have become surprisingly good at the second one.

You can know what time your next meeting starts, what needs picking up on the way home, whether there’s enough milk for tomorrow morning and exactly which message you still haven’t replied to, while having absolutely no idea what is happening inside you. Not because you’re doing anything wrong. Mostly because nobody ever taught you to pay attention to it.

We’re taught an enormous amount about how to function in the outside world, how to read and write. How to meet deadlines. How to behave appropriately. How to achieve things, solve problems and get on with other humans. Then somewhere along the way, you’re expected to magically know how to understand the human being doing all of that. It’s quite an oversight when you think about it.

So you learn other ways of deciding how you are. You look at whether you’re coping, whether you got through the day, whether you managed everything you needed to manage and whether there’s anything obviously wrong. Nothing terrible happened, you got everything done, and you’re still here to tell the tale, so you must be fine, right?

Except fine isn’t really a feeling. I like to think of it as a holding area for all the things you haven’t looked at yet.

Sometimes underneath fine is tired. Sometimes it’s content. Sometimes you’re irritated and don’t quite know why. Sometimes you’re excited. Sometimes there’s a low-level uneasiness you’ve been carrying around all morning. Sometimes you’re peaceful. Sometimes you’re lonely. And sometimes you’re hungry and have somehow turned that into an existential crisis about your entire life. Humans are wonderfully complicated creatures, truly!

And this is where getting to know yourself becomes interesting, because noticing how you feel isn’t only useful when something feels bad. I think that gets missed. We’ve become very interested in noticing ourselves when there’s a problem. Stress, anxiety, exhaustion, pain, or overwhelm gets uncomfortable enough to demand our attention, and suddenly we start looking inward.

But what about the rest of you? What does contentment feel like in your body? What happens inside you when you’re genuinely interested in something, when you’re with somebody you feel completely comfortable around or when you walk into a place you love? What happens when you hear a song that makes something inside you light up, or you’re sitting quietly with a cup of tea and, for no particularly dramatic reason, life just feels rather lovely? Those things are all valid information too.

Your body is giving you information all day long. A tightening here, a softening there, energy, heaviness, warmth, restlessness, ease. There’s the little lift you feel when something delights you, the way your shoulders drop around certain people and the way your whole system seems to lean towards some things and pull away from others. You don’t need to analyse every sensation or turn yourself into another project to manage. Please don’t. There are enough spreadsheets and apps in the world already recording and monitoring stuff.

This is about simply becoming curious about what something actually feels like before rushing to decide what it means. Not whether you should feel it, why you’re like this or how quickly you can make an uncomfortable feeling disappear. Just noticing what is here gives you somewhere very different to begin.

There’s something wonderfully kind about meeting yourself there, before judgement barges in with its clipboard. Because once you start noticing yourself without immediately trying to correct yourself, you begin gathering information about the person you actually are rather than the person you think you should be.

You start noticing what drains you and what makes you feel alive, what feels comfortable and what doesn’t, what you genuinely enjoy rather than what you’ve simply always done. You notice which people leave you feeling lighter, which environments make you soften, what makes you laugh, what makes you curious, what you need more of and what you’ve quietly had enough of. Over time, all those seemingly small pieces of information begin to tell you quite a lot about yourself.

That knowledge matters, although it doesn’t mean every feeling needs to become a decision. Feelings change. Humans change. Tuesday morning you is perfectly capable of having a different opinion from Friday afternoon you. The point isn’t to obey every feeling as though it has arrived carrying instructions. It is to know yourself well enough to hear what is going on before deciding what you want to do with that information.

Because when you know how to notice yourself, you have something far more useful than a set of rules about how you’re supposed to live. You have a relationship with yourself. And like every relationship worth having, that relationship becomes richer when you actually pay attention to the person you’re in it with.

So the next time you find yourself saying, “I’m fine”, you don’t need to stop yourself. Fine is a perfectly useful word. But now and then, when you hear yourself saying it, stay there for another moment and get a little more curious about what “fine” actually means today.

You may discover you’re tired, something has been bothering you, or there’s something you need. Equally, you may discover that underneath the automatic “fine”, you’re content, excited, peaceful or simply having a really lovely day. Notice that too. Getting to know yourself isn’t only about finding the uncomfortable bits.

Your life isn’t only happening around you. It’s happening inside you as well. And the more you notice that inner experience, the more you begin to understand the person who is actually living your life.

#Rebel Moment

The next time you ask yourself how you are, resist the temptation to decide how you should feel and get curious about how you actually feel instead. Give yourself a moment to notice what is there before you explain it, fix it, judge it or turn it into something that needs doing. You may be surprised by what you discover when “fine” isn’t the end of the conversation.

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Stay Blessed!

LoveLove

Nat x

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